The Prayer (FPB)

God,
In moments when my name is spoken in darkness and my character is questioned,
I ask You to stand with me.

You know my heart.
You know the work I do, the love I put into this community,
and the intentions behind every step I take.

When others come against me,
protect my spirit from bitterness, anger, and retaliation.
Let no lies take root, and no negativity steal my peace.

Cover me in grace.
Give me the strength to respond with wisdom,
the patience to stay grounded,
and the courage to keep walking in the light You’ve given me.

Turn every attack into fuel,
every shadow into testimony,
and let my character speak louder than any rumor ever could.

Bless those who misunderstand me or speak on me without knowing my heart, for I will not curse what You may still be trying to heal.

Keep me humble, keep me focused,
and keep my feet planted in love, truth, and purpose.

Amen.

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